Chapter 4
âAre you all right?!â
Betty came running over with wide eyes, having flung the tray with breakfast straight onto the ground.
This is so embarrassingâŠ
Of all times to get caught like thisâŠ
âWhat were you doing out here? Why werenât you inside? Did you collapse in the end? Are you dizzy? Is your anemia acting up?â
Completely unaware of my humiliation, Betty was hopping around in a panic as if she were the one who had fallen over.
I awkwardly made an excuse.
âIâI was trying to split some firewoodâŠâ
âYou, Your Grace? With those tiny, delicate, pale, soft hands? With arms more slender than the handle of a hatchet?!â
ââŠ?â
Was that a compliment�
âThis is unbelievable! Firewood, of all things! You look like someone whoâs never lifted anything heavier than a teaspoon in her life!â
ââŠâŠâ
Noâdefinitely not a complimentâŠ
I never knew Betty could talk this fast.
She was usually such a quiet girl who just brought meals without a wordâŠ
âHaa⊠anyway, please get up.â
When I just blinked at her, Betty yanked me up as if pulling a radish from the ground.
Despite her chubby cheeks and petite build, I could feel how well-trained her triceps were.
Oh⊠sheâs really solid.
I glanced down at my own arm.
Just as Betty said, it looked as thin as the handle of a hatchet.
ââŠâŠâ
For some reason, a deep sense of defeat washed over meâŠ
âY-yeah. ThanksâŠâ
I managed a faint smile.
Knock, knock.
âMaâam. Itâs Betty.â
âOhâyeah.â
Soon, the cabin door opened and Betty appeared again, holding a tray.
âIâve prepared breakfast again.â
âThank youâŠâ
Earlier, during the brief firewood incidentâ
Iâd slipped and rolled around on the muddy ground, completely ruining the clothes and hair Iâd just changed into that morning.
With an air of I canât believe Iâm seeing this, Betty had scolded me in a roundabout way, then swiftly heated water and scrubbed me clean.
As an adult, this was the first time in my life Iâd been so thoroughly washed by someone else. It was already my second humiliation of the day, right after falling on my backside while chopping woodâŠ
And yet, now Betty was back to being her usual taciturn self, as if none of that had happened.
âŠWell, just enjoy it.
You canât beat someone whoâs enjoying themselves.
Besides, soaking in warm water and slathering on fragrant oils was luxury of the highest order.
Once I decided to think good is good, my mind felt much lighter.
Then came breakfast once more.
Food!
When I lifted the silver cover on the tray, a delicious-looking salad greeted me again today.
Next to it were cherry tomatoes, oatmeal, a bit of grilled duck, and even a pretty sunny-side-up egg.
It was a perfectly balanced, textbook-healthy meal.
Considering that one possible reason Iâd died in my previous life was my utterly ruined eating habitsâpassing out drunk and allâthat was a relief.
Looks delicious.
As I blinked and picked up my fork, I noticed Betty, standing beside me, flinch for some reason.
Now that I looked closely, there were little flecks of snow resting in her brown hair and on her shoulders.
Feeling a bit guilty, I stood up instead of eating and brushed the snow off her shoulders.
âThanks for bringing this all the way here again, especially when itâs snowing. Wasnât it hard?â
âOhâno! Not at all! This is my job.â
âStill, on a snowy day like this, the path must be slipperyâŠâ
âItâs really fine.â
Well⊠remembering her solid triceps and well-defined forearms from earlier, something like this probably was nothing to her.
Still, that didnât mean I should take it for granted.
âBetty, youâre very kind.â
Thinking of how maids attending nobles were probably in the same position as graduate students who had to obey their advisors without complaint made my heart ache a little.
I decided to leave the small madeleine that came as dessert for her.
Then I sat back down and raised my fork againâ
But for some reason, Betty stood at the table, her face completely red, hesitating.
ââŠIs something wrong?â
She looked like she had something to say, so I gazed up at her curiously.
âM-Maâam!â
âYes?â
âUm⊠about the library you asked about the other dayâŠâ
âOh.â
I liked being alone, but I was getting bored.
A few days ago, Iâd asked Betty if she could bring me something to read, and she told me there was a library in the main building.
However, it had been neglected for a long time and needed cleaningâŠ
âDid you finish cleaning it?â
âWell⊠actually, right now there arenât enough hands at the ducal estate. Everyoneâs really busy, and I am tooâŠâ
âI see.â
âSo itâll probably be difficult for you to use it anytime soon.â
âHm.â
I speared a tomato with my fork and popped it into my mouth.
Its refreshing juice burst across my tongue.
âThen Iâll clean it myself.â
ââŠPardon?â
âWhatâs so hard about that? Can I go after I finish breakfast?â
âYouâll clean it yourself, maâam? With that delicate body? Goodness! Just holding a duster would make your arms fall off!â
ââŠâŠâ
What do you even think I am�
âO-of course, it was also you who made this place so nice in just a week. I was peeking now and then and was really surprisedââ
âYou were peeking?â
âA-ah, no! I mean, Iâm your maid, so I need to be your hands and feet, soâanyway! Please be careful with axesâŠ!â
Sensing sheâd said something wrong, Betty abruptly clamped her mouth shut.
I hid my slight embarrassment and protested.
âEarlier was just⊠because the axe was heavy.â
âI can lift it with one hand.â
ââŠâŠâ
Damn it. I lost to daily-life muscles.
Still, if I kept doing garden work, wouldnât I eventually escape these skinny twig armsâeven if I never reached Bettyâs level?
After all, I had personally turned this cabin into something decent in just a week.
So maybe I could handle cleaning the library too?
It wasnât the same as chopping wood.
Just as I was about to stubbornly press Betty again, she spoke first, her lips twitching.
âCould you⊠please not go to the main building?â
âWhy?â
âWell, even if you ask⊠um, how should I put itâŠâ
She seemed to be desperately trying to phrase things in a way that wouldnât hurt me.
âYou can be honest. WhyâŠ?â
âPlease donât ask for the reason! Anyway, Iâm saying this for your sake. Itâs better if you donât go to the main building.â
Betty looked truly uncomfortable.
I nodded as if I understood and asked,
âI see⊠then can I chop firewood?â
ââŠâŠâ
The cautious look sheâd had just moments ago vanished instantly, replaced by a fierce glare.
With her cute face and small frame, she reminded me of a Malteseâbut her presence was closer to Cerberus.
Sweating nervously, I asked again,
âSo thatâs not allowed either?â
âOf course not! What kind of duchess consort wouldâ!â
âBut thereâs really nothing else fun to doâŠâ
ââŠN-no! Even if you look at me with those rabbit-like eyes! IâIâŠ!â
â?â
Rabbit� Me�
I didnât really want to imagine what I looked like in her eyesâŠ
But honestly, aside from chopping wood, I had nothing to do, and if even that was forbidden, the day would be unbearably boring.
Cleaning the library and reading books would be perfect.
Why was she so determined to keep me away from the main building?
Was it because of that tall, big, broad-chested man who told me not to draw attention?
âIs it because of His Grace the Duke? Youâre worried I might catch his eye, and youâd get in trouble?â
ââŠâŠâ
âIf thatâs the case, I wonât go.â
Right. I couldnât put Betty in a difficult position because of me.
I could find some other way to entertain myself.
Just as I carefree thought, âThen maybe Iâll go climb the hill behind the cabinâŠââ
âThatâsâthatâs not it!â






