Chapter 02
Even before she married into the family, Hyemi had been exchanging lingering glances and whispering flirtatiously with Hyeonseoâs husband whenever she got the chance. Hyeonseo was well aware of it.
It had been obviousâeven right in front of her.
How lightly must they have regarded her to behave like that in front of the wife herself?
Leaving Hyemi, whose face was reddening as if she had nothing to say in her defense, Hyeonseo headed for the stairs.
Watching her retreating figure, Yeongsuk clicked her tongue.
âTsk, tsk⌠With a wife like that, I doubt Doha even has any reason to come home.â
Hyeonseo felt a burning sensation on the back of her head, but she didnât stop walking.
The anger she had suppressed for so long was rapidly reaching its limit.
No matter that it had been this way from the beginning.
No matter that it hadnât been just a day or two.
In the past, she had been able to endure it.
Back then, Seoha had been there. Her dazzlingly lovable child.
Fearing that her husband might be shocked, she had tried to swallow everything and endure it alone.
But as the shamelessness of her in-laws grew worse by the day, her patience was steadily wearing thin.
Even when her husband had to leave for an overseas branch and asked her to come with him, she had refused.
Because she wanted to see with her own eyes just how far these people would go.
And once even the son theyâd been somewhat wary of left the house, Yeongsuk became even more brazen in her mistreatment of Hyeonseo.
To them, Seoha had meant nothing after all. They were the kind of people who couldnât even remember that today was the anniversary of the childâs death.
Now, her desire to endure was outweighed by her desire to strike back.
Clenching her teeth, Hyeonseo headed upstairs, toward where her husbandâwho knew nothingâwas.
Yeongsuk, who had been glaring after Hyeonseo, soon softened her expression and gently patted Hyemiâs shoulder.
âDonât worry about anyone else. Just think about yourself. Youâve got a son in your bellyâyou need to eat well.â
âYes⌠Mother.â
âSeosanddaek, when Juhyeok comes later, heâll eat before leaving. Prepare that medicinal deodeok root the Mount Gubong forager brought a few days ago.â
âYes.â
Seosanddaek answered curtly, displeased that Yeongsuk always gave the best things to the younger son, and headed outside.
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The moment Doha entered the room, he set down his suitcase and let out a low sigh.
It felt as though he could hear the sound of Hyeonseo pounding on her own chest all the way here.
Nothing had changed. Noâif anything, things seemed worse. Judging by his wifeâs condition today.
It was the first anniversary of Seohaâs death. Hyeonseo seemed afraid to face that day together with her husband.
The grief over losing a child only grew more painful the more they tried to share it, leaving the couple unable to truly mourn together.
When she refused to accompany him overseas, Doha wasnât certain whether leaving her behind had been the right decision. But if seeing each other only caused more pain, perhaps distance could serve as a solution.
Heâd hoped that during those months apart, his wife might begin to heal.
But it seemed she hadnât recovered at all.
Doha picked up his car keys at once. Just as he was about to head for the door, it opened.
Hyeonseo walked in. Her gaze went straight to the keys in his hand.
âIâll⌠go see Seoha.â
She looked at him as if it took great effort, then nodded.
âShould we⌠go together?â
At his quiet question, Hyeonseo glanced at him, her face even more strained than before, and shook her head.
âNo. I already went earlier.â
Without another word, she walked deeper into the room.
âI see. Then Iâll go alone.â
With those heavy words, Doha left the room. After he was gone, Hyeonseo stared into empty space for a long while.
Only after Juhyeok and Hyemi finally leftâafter dinner and even dessertâwas Hyeonseo able to go upstairs and into the bathroom.
When she came out of the shower, her husband was already home. Sitting at the dressing table in the walk-in closet, she spoke.
âYouâre back?â
âYeah.â
Doha, having visited Seoha as well, didnât look any better. The worse his expression was, the harder it became to even mention their child.
Even the perfectionist husband who treated his wife dutifully had been unable to suppress his instinctive paternal grief.
Knowing that made it hurt all the more.
She could understand why couples separated after losing a child.
It was a pain too deep to revisitâyet she hadnât been able to leave his side, perhaps because of the unrequited love she had carried for so long.
Knowing it was foolish, she stayed now almost out of stubbornness.
As she looked away from him toward the mirror, Doha went into the bathroom to shower.
Left alone in the dressing room, Hyeonseo quietly asked the woman staring back at her from the mirror:
âWhy are you living like thisâŚ?â
Inside the shower, Doha turned on the water, hoping it would wash away his crushing grief and tangled thoughts alike.
Soaked in water and lost in thought, he finally reached a conclusion he had been struggling with since his time abroad.
When he emerged in a bathrobe, he suddenly stopped.
Hyeonseo was still sitting at the dressing table, just as she had been before.
He slowly approached her from behind.
When he appeared in the mirror and met her eyes, she raised hers to meet his reflection.
Standing right behind her, Doha asked quietly,
âWhy are you still here?â
He picked up the hair dryer on the table.
âIâll dry your hair.â
The hum of the dryer filled the air as he gently ran his fingers through her hair.
Hyeonseo watched the scene silently in the mirror.
After a long while, her hair was dry, and the noise stopped. The silence that followed felt even more awkward than before.
âThank you.â
Doha slowly set the dryer down, still looking at her reflection.
They continued to meet each otherâs gaze in the mirror, neither speaking.
For some reason, he didnât leave. He just stood there, staring at her with the same fierce gaze heâd had since her youthâthe gaze she had loved to the point of sickness.
Still watching him, Hyeonseo stood up and turned around, meeting not the reflection but the man himself.
The same eyes sheâd just seen in the mirror were far more intense up close.
That intensity moved even closer.
Before she could react, his palm cupped her cheek.
After a long silence, he kissed her.
The moment his soft lips touched hers, Hyeonseo closed her eyes.
It had been a long time. Long enough to miss it deeply.
The kiss quickly grew heated.
Carried by the momentum, Doha lifted her and took her to the bed.
As she was laid down, Hyeonseo looked up at him.
Unrestrained passion burned in his eyes, as though he had endured for too long and could no longer wait.
From there, things escalated rapidly, like fire fed with oil.
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Compared to how distant theyâd been, it felt like an impulsive act.
Perhaps it was because theyâd been apart for months.
Under the soft glow of the bedside lamp, warmth still lingered in the bedroom.
After catching his breath, Doha broke the silence first.
ââŚIt would be better if we had a second child soon.â
Staring at the ceiling, Hyeonseo turned her head to look at his profile.
âWould itâŚ?â
She couldnât even remember how the past year had passed. When Seoha was alive, sheâd wanted another child quickly. But after losing Seoha, sheâd had no room to think about babies at all.
âOf course, no one can replace Seoha. But if another child comes, things might be better than they are now.â
That seemed to be the conclusion Doha had reached.
But Hyeonseo wasnât convinced.
Lately, as sheâd grown tired of her shameless in-laws, her feelings toward the husband who didnât truly love her had also begun to change.
Half of her wanted to stay by his side.
The other half wanted to abandon him along with his family.
Once again, her husband came home late.
From the very next day after returning to Korea, heâd buried himself in work.
Having returned to his original position, it made sense that Chae Doha would be busy.
Just as she was about to lie down in her pajamas, Hyeonseo suddenly hesitated.
ââŚIt would be better if we had a second child soon.â
A second child⌠In a situation like this?
No matter how she thought about it, it wasnât right.
She was already struggling with whether to continue this marriage at all. Bringing new life into it made no sense.
Turning away, Hyeonseo left the master bedroom and headed for the guest room on the same floor.
Just then, she heard footsteps on the stairs. Doha had finally come home.
Turning around, she greeted him naturally.
âYouâre back?â
âYeah.â
âYou worked hard. Get some rest. Iâll sleep first.â
With those wordsâno different from usualâshe reached for the guest room door.
âWhere are you going?â
Doha stopped her, puzzled.
âIâm sleeping in this room.â
ââŚWhat?â
She had never done this before, and he clearly couldnât understand.
âI thought about it, and right now⌠a second child doesnât feel right.â
Her calm refusal made Dohaâs expression harden. His displeasure was immediately evident.
âSo youâre sleeping separately?â
âIf I donâtâŚâ
She couldnât bring herself to finish the sentenceâthat theyâd end up in bed together again.
Chae Doha had always been passionate. He always had been.
After what happened last night, she couldnât trust herself if they shared a bed again.
Looking at her husband, who was staring at her sharply, Hyeonseo suddenly asked,
âDo you⌠need my body?â
âWhat?â
His brow furrowed.
âYou donât?â
âWhat kind of wording is that? Donât turn me into trash.â
âIf not, forget it.â
Even as anger showed on his face, Hyeonseo remained calm.
âIf thatâs the case, I thought we could at least use contraception. If weâre not planning for a second child, then I guess my body isnât needed.â
Doha was left speechless.
He neither denied nor confirmed it, appearing conflicted.
But his pride had already taken a hit. Perhaps he wouldnât seek her out for a while.
Hyeonseo thought that might be for the best.
âGood night.â
With that, she turned away and went into the room, leaving behind a husband who looked unusually flustered.
Doha stood frozen, staring at the door that had just slammed shut.
For some reason, he couldnât bring himself to enter the master bedroom.
He walked to the guest room door and placed his hand on the knob.
But after pausing, he let go.
He had no idea what to say to his cold, distant wife.
Left with no choice, he entered the bedroom alone, tore off his shirt, yanked at his tie, then dropped onto the bed.
Letting out a long sigh, he ran his fingers through his hair.
Today, her body felt strangely unwell.
She had only given Seosanddaek the ingredients and menu for dinner, then gone upstairs to rest in the guest room.
Nearly three weeks had passed since Chae Doha returned to Korea.
He still left before dawn and returned only after nightfallâearlier than anyone, later than anyone.
But today, she heard movement upstairs before the sun had even fully set.
Thinking heâd come home early for once, Hyeonseo stepped out into the hallway.
Just as she did, she frowned.
âWhy does it smell like thisâŚ?â
It was just the usual scent of rice cooking downstairs.
Yet the smell that should have been comforting suddenly felt nauseating.






